ugh

I have decided that Spring break is a special kind of hell. Just as you get used to having evenigns free to sleep...pow, they suck you back in.

On the bright side, I got a better grade on my latest English paper than I expected...
And I did finish a submission I want to do. It's for a call for a compilation for Halloween release. Not really romance stuff, but I thought it might be fun to try. It's due on the 31st of this month.
But the bad news is a test-reader said it "didn't do anything" for her. :(
I think I may have spoiled her with blood and guts and violence though. LOL.

So, it's back to the writing board for me. I'm not really sure how "macabre" they want their submissions, so I will probably try to do a couple...but only because they are so short (3-6,000 words) and see if any of them make the cut.

So, thankfully I only have one more paper to write for English class... And a final exam this week...

Sometimes I think I over-estimate my abilities with time management. LOL.

frustrations

I hate it when I have a deadline looming overhead like a threatening bug. I have two that are quickly approaching. Ok, three...
The first is a school assignment. This has to be done by thursday....um, yeah...I need to get started on that....huh? lol.
The next is March 31st for a submission for a local publisher. I figure I might submit something a little outside of my typical norm (romance) and test the waters with them...
Finally, well, I guess that one doesn't have a strict strict deadline...but since I want to attempt to be in the next issue, I'm trying to get it done.

Wow. So much to do, huh? And yet I find myself finding any and every excuse to delay me actually sitting down and working on it. I'm not really sure why. Maybe it's because after all this time, my massive fear of rejection has just been building itself back up. And it's really hard going out on that limb, you know?

Either way, I'm going to have to find a way to give myself the kick in the pants that's necessary for me to stop thinking that it needs to be done and actually getting it done.

spring break

It seems there is so much to do with Spring Break. Though to be honest it doesn't really feel like there has been much of a winter where I live.

There really isn't much going on with the homefront... I need to write one more English paper then that torture is over. LOL. Who'd have thought that would be my least favorite class?!

Thus far I'm keeping my grades up pretty well, though I probably should try to study just a bit more. And we won't go into the chapters I need to read before next week gets here. But it's Tuesday...And Tuesday is one of my favorite days at my day job. Because it's the day all the new releases come out....movies and books...

One day I aspire to be able to smile as I see my name being stocked on the shelf. And okay, since it's me, I'd probably also squeal and maybe jump up and down...and quite probably get nothing accomplished...but it's one of my dreams. And I refuse to let it go. Even if it seems to be takiing me a lifetime to get there. :)

frustration

I want to pass on what my doctor likes to say. I have full plate syndrome. There is always something trying to add itself onto my plate, even when it's nearly full to bursting. Right now, is definitely one of those times.

I've about had it with several of my stressors. And right now, I'm saying "No More!"

Though on the bright side I did really well on one of my midterms....and I'm managing to keep my grades up.

A friend of mine gave me a great suggestion on a place to attempt to submit to and I'm working on a short story. Maybe not as glamorous as what I'd like...but its still writing.

stress stress everywhere

Life is becoming hectic for me right now.
First, my husband is back in the hospital and they can't really tell me anything yet, only that they are having a hard time running some of the specific tests they need to run.
Then there's my life as a college student. Can I just say I absolutely hate my English class? -- as a matter of fact, I should actually be working on an essay that's due tomorrow instead of blogging... but, I will do that when I finish this. lol.
My schedule is absolutely insane with a full time job, full time college classes, hubby in the hospital, and a kidlet who I don't get to spend nearly enough time with.
I'm at the point with my job that I like what I'm supposed to do on a daily basis... that however changes on days like today when I am the only XX chromosome from my department. Apparently the XY chromosome doesn't get pulled over to have to work in the clothing department... I don't think that's fair and I'm getting really pissed about it!
I'm waiting to hear back about a story submission, but that could still take months (ugh - I am not known for my patience), and I am not having the most pleasant of times with someone - we are in a rather heated disagreement actually.
whew.

Hmmm... Are there any positives? Well, not with writing, unless you see the submission as a positive, lol.
I am enjoying school when I'm not being uber-stressed by everything else around me.

Okay...I'm not really sure I have much more that I can add right now. So I'm gonna hit publish and hope something cuts me some slack really soon...

yikes/too much information

I totally fell down on the job. Epic fail when it comes to my blog...
*hanging head in shame*

Does it help if I throw myself on the mercy of this blog and tell everyone that I've been completely backed up with homework? That maybe I bit off a little more than I could handle with taking on a full time college schedule as well as working full time and trying to write and taking care of my family?

What if I admit that I submitted a story to a publisher and am anxiously awaiting their reply?

I know I'm not the best when it comes to keeping updates running. Part of it is because I wonder when is it time to draw that line? I know I personally like to know what is going on if something is causing a delay in books I want to read or when something will be published. But when is it too much information?

I'm having a very serious issue now with another 'professional' in writing. I don't believe he/she is handling things very professionally, and I've said so. I believe too much personal information is being used as an attempt to explain why he/she can't do his/her job professionally. And to be honest, I don't like it. It comes off as just another excuse.

So, the question boils down to, do I want to become the same way? Update people when there really is nothing new to update them on other than the private drama going on in my home? If my husband is back in the hospital or has four doctors appointments that week? Or if I've had a particularly hellish week with three exams and a major project due?

I guess it comes time for me to tell myself to put my big girl panties on and find a balance. Because there has to be a balance. Somewhere between me keeping you guys updated with my life and too much information that most people don't really want to hear about.

Advice or suggestions are not only welcome, they are, at this point, requested. lol.